I didn't mean to skip day 41. In fact I didn't skip it, just didn't blog about it.
Went to the gym with every intention of making my 5 mile goal. Treadmills can be boring. To fight this boredom I tend to really challenge myself. Agony makes time fly! Yesterday I even ran for, what was for me, extended periods. Apparently my ankles don't think running is a good idea yet. My left ankle seized up. Realizing injury is the fasted way to end this journey, I rounded off the mileage at 3 and come home.
Today I'm going for a walk along a trail that follows the river. It's supposed to be nice and I'm intending on having a do-over of my 5 mile goal. Should be better in the great outdoors. More interesting, less intense. 2.5 one way, 2.5 back.
Monday, February 1, 2010
Saturday, January 30, 2010
Day 40: Bike of Death
There's a stationary bike in the gym. Upon first inspection it looks like the "lazy bike". The seat is low and the peddles move nearly directly in front of you. I've seen people use this bike previously and wondered, 'Why bother? Doesn't seem to be doing anything'. Big misconception!
I've renamed this bike the "Bike of Death". It feels like any second it's going to snap your knees in half. Proudly I can say I have made tremendous health improvements. My body and mind are strong, getting stronger each day. But this bike has nearly got me beat. An hour on the treadmill? Two? Nothing in comparison to ten minutes on the "Bike of Death".
Guess I'll have to keep working to slay that beast.
Goal for Tomorrow: It's 5 miles!
I've renamed this bike the "Bike of Death". It feels like any second it's going to snap your knees in half. Proudly I can say I have made tremendous health improvements. My body and mind are strong, getting stronger each day. But this bike has nearly got me beat. An hour on the treadmill? Two? Nothing in comparison to ten minutes on the "Bike of Death".
Guess I'll have to keep working to slay that beast.
Goal for Tomorrow: It's 5 miles!
Friday, January 29, 2010
Day 39: Seeing the Truth
It's been 6 days since my last post. 6 days since the actions of another threatened to ruin my journey for good. Sounds crazy doesn't it?
I have always been the care taker. Attempting to take care of everyone problems and ignoring my own. I've come to believe the reason for this is not to be generous to others but in actuality to be sure I never have time to face myself.
The point of this journey has not just been to accomplish said goal(s) but to look deep inside myself and work on what causes my lack of follow through, thereby causing my lack of joy. It's time to see the truth. I have no control over others. I can only control my choices. Anything beyond that is pointless. My body, my life, my reactions. The end. Easier said than done.
On an up note: For the first time in my life I do not have hypertension! Still a little high but the doc says once I quit smoking it'll be normal. It's never, ever been close to normal. Amazing! My husband and I got prescriptions to help stop smoking. The down side is that they are so costly I haven't figured out how to pay for them. I've been giving serious thought to things I may be able to sell. Still thinking.
Time to pack it up and head to the gym. My training has been lax at best and I have some making up to do.
Today's Goal: Put the past behind me and move forward.
Tomorrow's Goal: Rinse and repeat.
I have always been the care taker. Attempting to take care of everyone problems and ignoring my own. I've come to believe the reason for this is not to be generous to others but in actuality to be sure I never have time to face myself.
The point of this journey has not just been to accomplish said goal(s) but to look deep inside myself and work on what causes my lack of follow through, thereby causing my lack of joy. It's time to see the truth. I have no control over others. I can only control my choices. Anything beyond that is pointless. My body, my life, my reactions. The end. Easier said than done.
On an up note: For the first time in my life I do not have hypertension! Still a little high but the doc says once I quit smoking it'll be normal. It's never, ever been close to normal. Amazing! My husband and I got prescriptions to help stop smoking. The down side is that they are so costly I haven't figured out how to pay for them. I've been giving serious thought to things I may be able to sell. Still thinking.
Time to pack it up and head to the gym. My training has been lax at best and I have some making up to do.
Today's Goal: Put the past behind me and move forward.
Tomorrow's Goal: Rinse and repeat.
Saturday, January 23, 2010
Day 33
I thought my life had finally come to a place where I could truly focus on me. The reasons for throwing all my energy into others had ceased. A new town, perfect for a new start.
Too confused to sort it all out now. Temptation to throw in the towel ever present. I am broken. My newly found confidence has been tested beyond anything I could anticipate.
But it is not up to anyone else - my happiness that is - it really has nothing to do with anyone or anything but my own body, my own mind and my own spirit. I hope to take the events of the last few days and move them into the box marked "past". To leave them behind and move forward. Someday looking back to say, "I made it through".
Too confused to sort it all out now. Temptation to throw in the towel ever present. I am broken. My newly found confidence has been tested beyond anything I could anticipate.
But it is not up to anyone else - my happiness that is - it really has nothing to do with anyone or anything but my own body, my own mind and my own spirit. I hope to take the events of the last few days and move them into the box marked "past". To leave them behind and move forward. Someday looking back to say, "I made it through".
Friday, January 22, 2010
Day 32
It took a few days but I finally broke. No exercise yesterday coupled with Taco Bell and ice cream. This morning my legs and fingers are swollen from the crap that went in my body. I really need to find balance between eating well and having some junk here and there.
The problem is that I really don't want the junk. I feel so alive when I eat right and exercise. Something else entirely takes over, quietly whispering at first, screaming before I listen. And this morning I'm paying the price. The good news is that over the past month whenever I give in to this voice my body has a bad reaction which in turn makes it easier for me to quiet the voice the next time.
What am I going to do about it today? Today I'm going to pick up where I left off. Instead of taking a 'rest day' (according to the training schedule) I'm going to do yesterday's 3 miles + strength training. Today I'm going to be sure to eat extra greens and drink extra water to help boost my energy back up and clean this grease and sugar out of my body. Today I am not going to sit around and feel guilty about yesterday. Today is here now, yesterday will not defeat me.
Today's Goal: Onward!
The problem is that I really don't want the junk. I feel so alive when I eat right and exercise. Something else entirely takes over, quietly whispering at first, screaming before I listen. And this morning I'm paying the price. The good news is that over the past month whenever I give in to this voice my body has a bad reaction which in turn makes it easier for me to quiet the voice the next time.
What am I going to do about it today? Today I'm going to pick up where I left off. Instead of taking a 'rest day' (according to the training schedule) I'm going to do yesterday's 3 miles + strength training. Today I'm going to be sure to eat extra greens and drink extra water to help boost my energy back up and clean this grease and sugar out of my body. Today I am not going to sit around and feel guilty about yesterday. Today is here now, yesterday will not defeat me.
Today's Goal: Onward!
Thursday, January 21, 2010
Day 31
Up before six this morning. I didn't want to be but a little voice told me, "Get up. You have a lot to do today". I shouldn't have listened because now I'm up, exhusted and unmotivated. Just needed another 45 minutes or so.
I've been thinking about my doctor's appointment on Monday. Can't wait to see what he has to say about my recent activity. Hoping the blood pressure has lowered enough he doesn't want to talk about medication again. I'm not going to take it. We take too much medication to glaze over the real issues. Some things are within our control but we choose to pretend the symptoms are the diagnosis.
Much prefered going to the gym before New Years. The equimptment is often sticky now from other people's sweat. I know the resolutions are to blame. It's almost been a month though so much of them will drop off soon. Those who don't will have earned the right to leave their sweat on everything. Sticking with an excercise program is easier said than done.
Today's Goal: Get in there, sweat or no sweat.
I've been thinking about my doctor's appointment on Monday. Can't wait to see what he has to say about my recent activity. Hoping the blood pressure has lowered enough he doesn't want to talk about medication again. I'm not going to take it. We take too much medication to glaze over the real issues. Some things are within our control but we choose to pretend the symptoms are the diagnosis.
Much prefered going to the gym before New Years. The equimptment is often sticky now from other people's sweat. I know the resolutions are to blame. It's almost been a month though so much of them will drop off soon. Those who don't will have earned the right to leave their sweat on everything. Sticking with an excercise program is easier said than done.
Today's Goal: Get in there, sweat or no sweat.
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
Day 30: Woopie!
I can hardly believe I made it to day 30! This in itself is worth a celebration!
A lot of exciting things for me today. Had a job interview. I think it went well. Got a hair cut - much needed might I add. Made an appointment with the Dr. on Monday to discuss quitting smoking! I'm on my way!
Because of the busy schedule I decided to put my miles in the evening. Let me just say it's much, much easier in the morning. My energy level is much higher than and the temptation to 'half-ass' it much lower. Good news is I gave it my all and when I felt I wanted to quit, upped the ante. All in all it was a great day!
Tomorrow's Goal: 3 miles and strength training.
A lot of exciting things for me today. Had a job interview. I think it went well. Got a hair cut - much needed might I add. Made an appointment with the Dr. on Monday to discuss quitting smoking! I'm on my way!
Because of the busy schedule I decided to put my miles in the evening. Let me just say it's much, much easier in the morning. My energy level is much higher than and the temptation to 'half-ass' it much lower. Good news is I gave it my all and when I felt I wanted to quit, upped the ante. All in all it was a great day!
Tomorrow's Goal: 3 miles and strength training.
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